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  Hey Fam,  Welcome to my first All Spoilers Book Review! I have no idea how this is going to go, so it may also be the last, let me know what you think. This week I want to talk about an amazing book that always gets me right in the place I call the “Discomfort Zone.” I will eventually write a piece about what exactly my Discomfort Zone is, but the TLDR of it is that, as someone who lives with mental illness and pervasive thoughts, who is literally never in a state of comfort, seeing things that are dark, weird, otherworldly, and unsettling actually IS comforting… because it’s a feeling I understand. Things that are dark are welcoming, familiar. The darkness doesn’t stare back, it soothes like cold water on a burn, and lulls me to relaxation in a way I can’t quite explain. But it does. The macabre, the eerie, the deafening quiet, all of it sways in harmony with my weird little Goblin soul.  Also, if the title didn’t give it away: This post contains SPOILERS. So if you e...

Yeah, I did spend way too much time Googing bras and writing down words to use in the title of this post. Don’t judge me! Judge me if you must, just don’t look at my search history. NEVER LOOK AT A WRITER’S SEARCH HISTORY. Moving on! Hey Fam,  Today’s topic is one that I’ve always wanted to write about, but it is a difficult one to bring up. I’ve spent a decent amount of time thinking about this one as it is relevant to me in many ways, and thus I will be exploring this from my own perspective and doing my best to do so fairly to both sides. As with everything I do here, it is an open-ended conversation and I do my best to be honest. We are exploring this topic together and perhaps it will be helpful and we both walk away the better for it.  This is a hard one to write, and a hard one to read for aspiring writers, artists, business owners, etc. It’s a harsh reality that I learned over the years, and this honestly is not meant to call anyone out who knows me personally. It is l...

  TW: In this post I discuss topics of depression, anxiety, phobias, and make loose references to trauma. If you find yourself struggling, please reach out to someone in your life you can trust, or speak to your doctor about treatment options such as speaking to a counselor. If you are in Canada you can call 1-866-585-0445 or text "Wellness" to 686868 for youth and 741741 for adults. Youth can also call Kids Help Phone at 1-800-668-6868 for confidential and anonymous support from responders trained in mental health support. You are not alone. I want to be a mushroom.  That is to say, I want to walk into the woods, fall down face first into the moss, and sink. Sink under the spongy green of the forest floor, then allow a constellation of mushrooms to explode from my soul, a rainbow of all the emotions that I feel too much of. It’s always too much, isn’t it? I am somehow always too much, and never enough. Ugh.  People will walk by and hear the pop pop pop of my fungal...